January 4, 2011

Katie's Bio

Giving it up...

Can't stop thinking about love, friendship and relationships. Its like, how do you know if someone is your Lex Luther or your Harry Osborn? Giving your whole self to someone can be so scary because you never know if they're going to do something stupid, like turn into the Green Goblin or even just take you for granted.

I'm at the point in my relationship where there's no other option than skywriting Katie loves Joshua throughout Pacific Bay. I know it's anatomically impossible but it feels as if my heart grows four sizes every time he enters a room. The swelling tightens my chest and won't decrease until he offers a kiss or a compliment. Something to assure me he feels the same way.

In a very different way, I feel a similar need for release from Dr. Powell. Okay, I know that sounds creepy, let me qualify. At first, when Dr. Powell shared her secret with me, it felt as if I inherited a new best friend. Her trust in me bonded us. But as we move forward in our research, I'm realizing she shared with me out of necessity. She needed to tell someone with a scientific mind.

Sometimes, I see her side glance at me in a "what in Galactica are you talking about?" kind of way. I just wish I had a friend who understood me. A friend who needed me as more than as a trusted minion. A peer. Truth is though, I want that friend to be Stephanie.

There's nothing I wouldn't do to for her and nothing I would ever do to put her in danger. As I move forward in my relationship with Joshua, I look to her for advice. I'm hoping as time goes on, she'll begin to see me as an equal. I'm willing to be patient. As long as nothing comes between us in the meantime.