February 22, 2011

Katie's Bio

CHAMELEON

Chameleons signify something socially to other lizards by changing colors. Males tend to show darker colors when angered and lighter colors when surrounded by females.

After experiencing overwhelming stress or traumatic incidents humans are known to disassociate from part of their brain losing their identity. About one percent of these people end up with Disassociated Identity Disorder or DID.

The chameleon is an example of a animal changing to conform to it's environment. DID is an example of an animal changing to survive in it's environment. But in both cases the subject changes due to something in their own biological structure.

Joshua apparently did not have the inherent power in his DNA to change. I have to learn to forgive myself because no matter how much I wanted to I know I can't clean up his mess. He was in too deep. The line where the lies ended and the truth began blurred. If he wasn't prepared to sharpen that line there's no way I could.

You cannot change another person. I learned that the hard way today. Dr. Powell and I tried to change Joshua from who he is and we of course failed. Chris Minor took desperate measures to make his dad better. Both situations left me as a hostage.

I've been set free. Mr. Minor really wanted very little do with me once I gave him what he wanted. Hostage situations usually end two ways: the girl is saved by her hero or the girl dies. I'm not saying I prefer the latter, but I have no reference for girl goes free and ends up alone. I've never thought of free and alone as synonymous before but now well, the words are weighing on me. Free and alone.